More than anything, I miss the way I felt.

I'm undeniably sad.

Everything has changed so much this year. But not in the way I thought it would. You're supposed to go to college and meet new friends that will change your life. Living in the dorms is supposed to be filled with some of your best memories.

Instead, I met a few people - all of which never amounted more than a casual conversation here, a facebook add there. Living in the dorms left me with a lot of memories - but few are good. I don't recognize my friends anymore. They have new lives, filled with exciting people and fun times.

I don't have a place anymore. The few times I do decide to venture out, I feel left out. Everyone has a person. I used to have people too. I had my person at the party who I'd have if it got lame. But they have their own people now. And I can't really blame them. They did what you're supposed to do after high school: move on. It's not that I don't want to move on. Nothing could be further from the truth. I just have nothing to move on to. Sometimes I miss high school simply because I felt like I was a part of something - even if that something consisted of complaining over an assignment with classmates or chatting about the latest drama.

I just need to feel that way again.