It’s my biggest enemy.

It consumes my thoughts. It controls me.

It’s an obsession I can’t get rid of.

It’s a battle I’ve been fighting for half of my life.

I want to be free. But it’s only getting worse. It’s never been this bad.

I don’t know how to make it stop. I’m afraid I can’t. I’m afraid I don’t want to.

And I hate you for making it worse.