I'm trying to be logical. Really. But it isn't that simple. I see the math. I see it. But it's almost an abstract concept...I know I've accomplished it but I don't feel it.

Something positive from this struggle though is that I've realized that I've been too harsh on other people. Everyone's problems look so easy from a distance. "Why can't they just get over it?" "Can't they see how good their life is?" It's just not always that simple.

You can want to make things better. You can know that your actions might not be the best for you. You can view your problem from an objective perspective and see that you're out of your mind.

But actually overcoming it? I'm still working on that one.