I feel so damn good.

For months, I was drowning. Constantly living in the past. Questioning if I had done this or that if things would be different. Wondering how I would ever get passed it.

But I can honestly say, even if it took me 6 months, that I'm over it.

I'M OVER IT!

And now I'm taking my life back. I'm not wasting anymore time waiting anymore - not that you are even worth waiting for.

I still am grateful though. Because despite all wasted tears, I got to experience something great. Were the feelings real? I'm not sure. But I know that it doesn't matter. For 6 months, I was happy and I felt invincible. Then we crashed and burned.

But it was worth it. And that's all that matters.

You're looking so innocent, I might believe you if I didn't know

I'm just another dumb girl that falls for all the shit guys spew.

And you know what? I deserved it.

I deserved it because I was stupid. I was stupid to believe that a guy can mean the words he says simply because he loves you and wants you to know it. Not because he's a horny teenager with no conscious.

I still believe in love the way I used to. You can break my heart but you can't break my hope.

And for the record, I don't care what you tell people. If you need to tell people that you fucked me good and hard so you feel cool, then please go ahead. You can say it all you want, but you'll still be a pathetic little virgin boy who tells girls shit so they'll fuck him.

You may not have fucked me the way you wanted, but you fucked me over more than enough anyways.