Everyone has those moments. Moments where it feels like everyone but you is in love. But I don't think anyone truly believes that they are going to end up alone.

In reality though, it's a complete possibility. Who's to say that there is someone out there who will want to marry me? Maybe, despite my almost obsession with the concept of love, I will never experience it. Who's to say?

I don't believe in fate or "meant to be." I believe life is what you make it.

Here derives my issue with food. You can't make yourself prettier. You can't change your personality (at least not if you want to stay true to yourself). But you can make that roll on your stomach disappear. You can control your weight. And you tell yourself that maybe those last 5 pounds is all that is standing in your way from getting the guy.

Now I realize this is completely insane. And I don't want anyone freaking on me that I have some sort of eating disorder. I don't and that is not the point I'm trying to make.

My point is that it's hard to change your position in life. You can want something and you can tell yourself you're going to make any changes necessary - but sometimes things are just the way they are. And I guess that means I need to adjust my expectations accordingly.