Sunday, December 7, 2008

"So here's to everything coming down to nothing"

despite everything, i'm thankful for the things that have happened.

i had my heart broken. everything changed with one phone call. i was a mess. but i'm here. and even though my heart may still be a bit broken, I'm not broken.

and I know not a lot of people understand my choice to move home. it's so frustrating too because I feel like people think I'm moving home because I want to be in my comfort zone.

true? maybe a little. but the truth is that I am strong enough to admit that I don't want to be here. I know for a fact that some people are unhappy with college life, but they go on pretending.

I'm just over it. I'm over living my life the way other people want me to live it. I'm over trying to impress you. I'm over trying to change your mind. I'm over it.

"And I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you can't feel nothin' at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
And it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didn't mean it baby, I don't think so"

1 comment:

K said...

Lisa,
i am so proud of you. I could never be as strong as you. EVER. even when you are putting up with something that you hate, you still make the best of it.
I have had my heart broken once. and I to this day can't talk about it. it hurts so bad. You make me feel like i can overcome anything.
who cares if you aren't always positive!? how can you be when life is whipping you in all directions and you don't want any of it. next semester will be a blast for you. i know it. and you are always welcome to visit me. anytime.
i love you babe. and i wish the best for you.
im so proud <3
:)