I'm afraid that I function too well on my own.
I have taken of care of myself ever since I was little. By the time I was 10, I was left home alone. Before that I might as well have been since my Grandma had Alzheimer's and was probably more of a danger to me than anything. Dad was always somewhere or another and Mom worked insane hours. I ate dinner alone. I had to learn to make due on my own.
But all that alone time as a kid has backfired in my adult life. I will always choose being alone than going somewhere to socialize. I hate social situations. I'd just rather not deal with it. I recently discovered the wonders of going to a movie theater alone - no hassle of trying to find a common movie or time that works for everyone. You can see whatever the hell you want, pig out on popcorn, and cry at a cheesy movie without anyone to judge you for it.
But I don't want to be alone forever. It'd be so easy for me to just work, come home to my puppy and watch TV for the rest of my life. But I want so much more than that. How do I get it though? How do I fight 20 years of habit?
1 comment:
One day Lisa, you will find someone that makes you want to share you time. I know that you might not believe me, but you will find them. You won't even know it until it hits you.
And being alone isn't bad! I want to move into a house by myself :) Its good to be able to live alone. Most people can't function alone.. and what is going to happen to them when they are alone? They won't be able to handle it.
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